Wednesday, May 6, 2015

My Final

1.  My favorite writing pieces that I did were Change of Heart, Gold Digger, and Nice Guys Finish Last.  Change of Heart is based off of a card design for the Yu-Gi-Oh! card game.  The main character struggle is based off of the card, but I'm not sure where the actual story came from.  I daydream a lot, so that might have something to do with it.  Gold Digger was based off of my own personal experience with divorced parents.  There's a lot of argument about money, and because of that, my parents don't seem able to talk to each other without fighting.  Nice Guys Finish Last is also based off of a personal experience.  My ex-boyfriend was very controlling, and wanted to make sure that I wouldn't leave him.  When I broke up with him, he wasn't very understading, and even threatened to kill himself if I didn't come back.

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3.  Setting up this blog was interesting, and I suppose I enjoyed posting stuff on it, just because someone would read it.  I'm not sure if I'll continue to use it, but I know I will continue to write things. I have a (tumblr) blog that I'm sure I'll continue to use.

4. I don't have a 'journal' so to say... I don't keep daily accounts of what happened like some people.  The closest thing to a journal I have is that project we did, where we had to re-decorate a book and make it our own.  I don't think I'll start keeping a journal either.

5.  I don't wanna actually go into the journal we kept during school becuase I'm tired and sad, so I'll just tell you what I like from what I can remember.  I remember writing Fashion Flame, and that it was a very important story to me.  I liked the color unit, looking at colors and their titles and coming up with a story.  I had a story idea given to me from a dark green that I have yet to write; it was about 1920's flapper lesbians.

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I was awoken by a large clattering noise, my vision blurry and my body feeling too heavy.  I laid on the cold, wet floor of my jail cell, my silver hair released from its usual tight bun, my locks draping over my shoulders and floor.  A shadow was cast over me, and a figure came into my view.
“Princess Tianshi of Haiyang-Shui, Prince Saqr demands your presence.”  The man said to me, and I let out a heavy breath.  He opened my cell and walked in, grabbing me roughly by the arm and hauling me to my feet, then pushing me out the door.  We walked down the hall, up the stairs, out of the dungeon, more winding hallways, then outside into the blinding light.  We walked across the hot sand, my bare feet burning as I stumbled along.  For being a neighboring country of Haiyang-Shui, although my country is an island, Arvin is dry desert.  How an empire was able to flourish here was beyond me. 
My guard pushed me along, until we finally came to the palace, where I was sure to meet my enemy.  More walking and we finally entered.  The cool, marble floor was haven to my feet, and it gave me goose bumps.  We walked into the throne room, sitting in his lavish throne, was the prince.  I tried to give him a hateful glare, but I doubted he saw it.  We approached the prince, and my guard forced me to my knees.  I stumbled to the floor, my dirtied robes pooling around me on the marbled floor.  I looked up, before me was the Prince of Arvin, the country that had just conquered my own. 
The prince stood up, the guards bowing and backing away, to give him room.  He approached me, a playfully sly smile on his lips, his golden eyes observing me carefully.  “So, you’re the princess of Haiyang-Shui?  When my warriors told me about you before we attacked, they described a fragile little girl who was rather skilled at healing, however…”  He said to me as he circled me slowly.  “On the battlefield, my soldiers described something of a demon to me.  A girl with silver hair, absolutely slaughtering my men.  You cannot possibly be the same girl.  You are… Much too feeble.”  He said with a chuckle, and he knelt down in front of me.  “But this hair color is not common for your people, isn’t it.”  He grabbed my hair roughly and I let out a whimper involuntarily. 
“How sad it must be for you.  To be a descendent of the angels, to be worshipped all your life, only to have your own people turn their backs on you.”  I glared at him, and then I saw it.  His hair, from afar, seemed black, but up close it was a dark purple color, like plums.  He was a descendent of the angels as I was!  “My people didn’t betray me!”  I shouted at him.  He laughed, a warm, lovely laugh, and let go of my hair.
He stood up walking back to his throne, inspecting the swords hung up beside the seat.  “Yes they did.  After I received word of a single force about to obliterate my army, I rushed in.  I found you easily, standing in the middle of a war zone, covered in blood, laughing hysterically, not in your right mind… But that wasn’t you, was it?”  He questioned me.  “I have no idea what you are talking about!  I set up defenses to protect my people, but after doing that for several days, I…” I hesitated; I did not want to admit that I had passed out after several days of no sleep, barely eating, to protect my people.  I was so ashamed of myself.
The prince waved it off.  “Yes, yes, of course.  But I believe you are something not human, and something not angelic.  That person I saw, it was your body, but not you.  And never before had I had such an epic battle!  You even forced me into flight, forced me to use my angelic powers!  No human has ever forced me into such a position.  And for that, I suppose I’ll have to kill you on my own.”  He said casually, stretching out his arms.  I reeled, my blue eyes growing wide, mouth gone dry.  Kill me?  No, no… I refuse.  “If you intend to kill me, then release me from these ropes!”  I shouted, my mind rushing, thinking of an escape plan.  “Ah, yes, but see, what I have learned in my hundred and seventy years of life, is to not toy with your enemy.  It may not be honorable, but it gets that job done quicker.”  He said as he drew his curved sword.
Panic grew inside me, my heart pounding, and cold sweat running down my back.  He walked towards me, and I attempted to stand, but only ended up pushing myself down back to the floor, scooting back on my behind.  Gaining on me, gaining on me, he stalked towards me.  Running out of ideas, I rolled over, to try to push myself up to my knees, but I realized that my wings were completely unbound!  I untucked them, and began to flap them as fast as I could, kicking up wind and dust within the room.  The prince began to laugh.  “Try to fly away, little bird, you will not get far!”  He shouted at me.  With my arms bound, I wouldn’t be able to fly away from him for very long.  What would I do, I’m going to die here, but I can’t… I can’t, I was going to take care of my country, for centuries upon centuries, until my death.  I can’t let it end here!
A gargled scream erupted from my throat as a great pain struck through my skull, like my head was being ripped open.  I fell to the floor, the coldness soothing me in some way, and my vision went black.
                A laugh, cold and cruel, escaped Tianshi’s lips.  It grew louder and louder, the prince gripped his sword tightly, readying himself for the demon’s battle.  Shifting and struggling, the girl stood to her feet, flames erupting around her, burning the ropes that bound her.  Her arms fell to her side, and looked around herself lazily.
                “Ah, I see I’m in the palace of,” Her gaze fell on Prince Shaqr.  “Prince Shaqr, how nice to see you again after you rammed that sword into my lower intestines.  You must have been very merciful to take me into your care and allow my other-self to heal our body, but trust me, I won’t be.”  She stalked around the prince, never breaking eye contact.  The prince stood ready for an attack, ready to defend at any moment.  “My weaker other-self would probably fight you if she could, but she’s too soft.”  She grabbed a sword off the wall.  “You’ll find that we are very different, she and I.  I’ll make sure to completely crush you, and hold your head to your subjects and reclaim my country from you.”  She took her stance, lunged, and red blood was splattered across the marble floor.

7.  I'm not sure if I'll make a job out of writing, as sometimes it can get very tideous for me.  I do plan, however, to turn Change of Heart into a book.

8.  I really enjoyed this class.  Even though now, I'm tired and I don't want to do any of this, I'll still get it done.  I enjoyed some of the things that we did, such as color.  I wanted to do more of a music unit where we listened to music and wrote stories based off of that song.  But regardless, I still enjoyed my time here.

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

This is Me

This is me, with my family.
But not my family, my host family.
Mother, father, and daughter, and I.
Standing in front of their tiny Japanese house in tiny Isesaki, Japan.
I tower over Daughter and Mother, and only a half an inch taller than Father.

This is me, my hair wavy and curly, not due to the heat, but because I haven't straightened my hair in weeks.
Wearing the ugly green shirt made to keep track of my group.
This is me, smiling wide and broad as my family keeps their tiny smiles.
Me, with my blonde hair, blue eyes, and tall figure, standing out like a sore thumb in this country.

This is me, after a week of living with them, trying to speak, and mostly failing.
Being embarrassed at the fact that I dunk my cookies in milk.
That I can't find clothes my size when shopping.
Not eating breakfast, not eating lunch, and not eating dinner.
Not because I don't want to, I'm just not used to the food.

This is me before I return home,
on the nine hour flight across the ocean, four hours to Dallas, two hours back to Springfield.
To go back, work on my language skills, and prepare for another hosting in the summer.
Texting and Facebooking across the globe.

This is me, homesick for a place I wasn't home to.

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Post of the Millennium

I made my way to the shelter, a large tent surrounded by vehicles and people, some in uniforms, and many, many more in the clothes of my culture.  I came to a stop, holding my 6 month old baby, and began waiting in that dreadful line.  People surrounded me, more getting in line behind me, but as long as the line was, it moved forward at a decent speed.  People shuffling forward, children playing with each other, adults looking somber, a baby screaming off in the distance.  My child, who had been sleeping for the entire walk from my house to the outskirts of the village, wiggled in my arms, rubbing his eyes, yawning, beginning to wake up.  He opened his eyes at me, and I smiled down at him, greeting him good morning and cooing at him as I progressed forward with the line.  A gurgle, then a whine, then sobbing, my child breaking down into tears, his cries echoing throughout the area.  I shushed and rocked my baby, but to no avail, his screams could not be calmed.  He demanded food, and I was to provide.  I could not, though, not at the moment.  More shuffling forward, and we reached the inside of the tent, the shade providing some comfort to him, and we continued our wait.  Finally served, I was granted a porridge of rice, meat and vegetables.  Quickly shoveling a few mouthfuls of food into my mouth, I lifted a bit of rice for him, and brought it to his mouth.  He ate feverishly, and I continued to feed him until I knew he was full and sleepy once more, and then helped myself to the remains.

Friday, April 10, 2015

About Lindsey 101



1.       I own about 200 Japanese comic books.
2.       I know how to knit, but only pearl and stitch.
3.       I hate winter. Viva la warmth.
4.       I take great pride in my zodiac, for some reason.
5.       I’ve wanted to learn Japanese since middle school.
6.       I’ve worn a Halloween costume to the mall when it wasn’t even close to being Halloween.
7.       My favorite game series is Kingdom Hearts.
8.       I really like the GONE series.
9.       I grew up with the Harry Potter movies.
10.   I’m the first openly gay person in my family.
11.   I’m the oldest of my generation.
12.   Whenever I watch a new show, I usually mentally marry one of the characters.  As of now, I have three husbands, and one wife.
13.   The first time I drove in my own car after I got my license I was flipped by a woman on her cell phone.
14.   I own one copy of all the Pokémon games.
15.   My bedroom walls are covered with posters.
16.   I refuse to play any Mario game unless it’s for the Super Nintendo.
17.   I am thankful for all the different things that can be made from potatoes.
18.   My favorite app is Cytus.
19.   I’ve participated in softball, basketball, and soccer, but only when I was a kid, I don’t like sports anymore.
20.   Out of my three family members who have Prolonged QT, I have not died once.
21.   My Patronus is a dolphin.
22.   My super power would be to heal people.  But flying would be cool too.
23.   The future scares me sometimes.
24.   My first job was at KFC, but I was let go at the end of my training period. 
25.   I still love mermaids.
26.   Barbie Farytopia and Mermadia are my favorite Barbie movies, closely followed by Barbie and the 12 Dancing Princesses, and Barbie as Rapunzel.
27.   I have no desire to have kids, and even getting married is up in the air.
28.   I didn’t get my license until my senior year.
29.   When I was little, I used to have a crush on David Bowie in Labyrinth.
30.   My favorite Pokémon is Sylvion.  
31.   My favorite Disney movie as a kid was The Little Mermaid.
32.   My mother and I both share the same zodiacs:  Year of the Bull and the Cancer.
33.   I really like giraffes.
34.   I’ve been to Japan on a two week trip.
35.   I once taught myself how to play the guitar, but quickly lost interest even though I was into it hardcore for several months.
36.   I know how to knit.
37.   I used to only buy two pairs of shoes a year: tennis shoes and sandals.  Now I’m trying to catch up with all the shoes I missed out on.
38.   I want long hair and short hair, want to keep my blonde hair but also want to dye it purple.
39.   I don’t think I’ll ever get a tattoo.
40.   I can draw cartoons very well.
41.   I wish I could see ghosts sometimes.
42.   My grandmother was a psychic, and she hoped I would be one as well.
43.   I always sleep in the fetal position in the winter, but in summer I sprawl out more.
44.   I want like, 10 dogs.
45.   I procrastinate a lot.
46.   I talk a lot, at some point I’m not even talking with someone, it’s just me talking to myself because the other person has tuned me out.
47.   Considering marrying a billionaire.
48.   I always wished I went to Hogwarts.
49.   I’ve been to Hawaii.
50.   My favorite type of tree is Willow.
51.   My favorite flower is Lily.
52.   I want a pet dragon.
53.   I enjoy the Harvest Moon and Animal Crossing games.
54.   I don’t like icing on cakes unless it’s cream cheese icing.
55.   I like making flan, but don’t like eating it.
56.   When I was in 2nd grade, I wanted to change how my name was spelled, so I spelled it as “Lindzey” for about a month.
57.   I binge play The Sims.  I’ll play for a week straight, then never pick it up until 8 months later.
58.   Proud member of the “I’ve never titled my blog as ‘Welcome to my Twisted Mind >:D’ club.”
59.   I accidentally bought a gay anime porn magazine in Japan.
60.   I was on Japanese national television, but I was on an adrenaline rush and embarrassed myself.
61.   I used to be able to waddle exactly like a penguin when I was little, but now, not so much.
62.   I didn’t have my first crush until I was a sophomore in high school.
63.   I’m not allowed on roller coasters, but I go on anyway.
64.   I haven’t been sick since freshmen year.
65.   I used to really like Escape the Fate, but now I think they’re kinda silly…
66.   I get to listen to my brother’s stories of puberty, and how he’s ‘growing’.
67.   Animal Crossing calms me.
68.   I need like, 20 blankets to be warm when I try to sleep.
69.   When I first played Kingdom Hearts, I binged played it and logged about 72 hours on it before I finished it, all the extra hours spent on it was to unlock the extra ending.  Totally worth it.
70.   My favorite online MMORPG game is Fiesta Online.
71.   My least favorite cartoon is Family Guy.
72.   I am a feminist.
73.   I enjoy large hoodies, jackets, and sweaters.
74.   I like to read books in large trees in the summer.
75.   I really like the musk melon ice cream sold at oriental stores only.
76.   I think it would be cool, but terrifying, to sky dive.
77.   I was once grounded from scissors for cutting a hole in the screen of my window.
78.   I’ve been stung by a bee only once, on the knee.
79.   I’ve written embarrassing Naruto fanfiction.
80.   I hate having to read books for class.
81.   I wish there was an Eastern History class at Kickapoo.
82.   I drink a cup of tea every morning, with too much sugar and with too much milk that makes the tea too cold.
83.   I once spent $20 at one time on Yu-Gi-Oh! trading cards.
84.   I always wanted to start collecting something, but I never got around to finding something cool enough to collect.
85.   I can eat so much ham in one night.
86.   After years of training, I can crack open crab legs perfectly and get all the meat out without leaving any inside the shell.
87.   I’ve eaten cow tongue and intestines before.
88.   I’ve eaten tomato flavored candy.
89.   I love apples with cinnamon.
90.   I’ve always wanted to make caramel apples, but never get around to doing it.
91.   I used to have a large collection of Pokémon cards, but I gave them away because I thought I was too old for them.  How wrong I was.
92.   I once tried to get into a car that I thought was mine.  With someone else in the car.
93.   When I was in middle school, I wanted my hair so long it could reach my hips.  Just like in the animes.
94.   I got my first cell phone when I was in 6th grade, I started riding the bus to and from school, and we didn’t have a home phone.
95.   I think shrimp is overpriced.
96.   I wish I was more unique.
97.   I came out when I was a sophomore.
98.   I don’t like turkey stuffing.
99.   When I’m in the shower or going to bed, I think up a story in my head and continue it until I fall asleep.
100.                        I once forgot to put on sunscreen when volueentering, and was sunburned so badly the skin around my eye swelled up, but it was only on the right side of my face.
101.                        I want to teach English as a second language in Isesaki, Japan.